Of rainbows

Live like you're dying.
This is one of the most memorable and widespread quotes of out time.
It is really easy to see why such a simple, ordinary and easy line carries so much weight.
The future is really not promised to anyone.
Sometimes it is easy to forget that we are not invincible.
Especially when we are in our youths, we conveniently forget that our time will soon come.
When we too will  join our peers in remembering the days gone by.

So forget about living prudently.
We are only promised today
It is our duty to live as if it would be our last.
All I know is I do not want to have any regrets.
So whenever there is an urge in me to do something,
I will not hesitate to take a leap of faith,

Because you might just end up discovering a rainbow on the other side.

Valentine's Day

The idea of love and romance I suppose is a very appealing one. It gives you this sweeping sometimes seemingly irrational feeling of  abundant , explosive joy albeit a momentarily one. To be more precise, just  a mere 24 hours, a reason or rather an excuse to show affection, appreciation without risking being labeled as being to corny and cheesy.

It is hearting to know that people still value love and affection and all this mushy feelings to the point of dedicating a special day to profess love and adoration. It is really done out of the best intentions. We should make everyday Valentine's day because I believe it is important to let the people closest and dearest to us know how much they mean to us.

I am puzzled though by the recent comments by some parties in Malaysia about Valentine's day being 'haram' ,'sinful' and against Islam. I may not know the content of the Quran but I just can't wrap my mind around the idea  that celebrating valentine's day is immoral for Muslims. I might seem ignorant of the teachings of the religion but in my humble opinion, I don't think God would be mad or would punish us for showing our love and affection to the people that we love in ways we deem fit. The way I see it, we are made to love and that in itself gives our life some semblance of meaning and purpose. More importantly if there is a specially dedicated day in which we would be reminded about the importance of demonstrating our love to the people that matter the most to us, we should and must embrace the underlying idea of Valentine's say. No matter how cliche or irksome it is to some of us.

Of course we can choose not to celebrate V day but we must never reject the value and importance showing and telling people that we care and love them. After all its not about lovers, it is about EVERY single person that means the world to us and Valentine's day is just an instrument in allowing us to do so.
It is the idea and purpose of Valentine's day that we must remember.

happy valentine's day peeps =)

Change

They say that the only constant in life is change. Everything is bound to change. I guess we all know that but somehow we hope that by trying to avoid thinking about it or acknowledging it , the painful change that is slowly creeping into our lives will go away. Perhaps change can be mitigated once we stop thinking about it.

Similar to the idea of mind over matter?  You think that your circumstances have not change and that it's all in your mind. You hope and wish that maybe you are over-thinking it and that in reality and actuality things have not change to the point that it has become alien to you. At least that is what you hope it is.

But sooner or later  like an incoming hurricane ,it hits you and all that you're left with is questions. Questions of why, what and most significantly how in the world did you allow such unrecognizable  changes to happen to your life. A life in which you are supposed to be the master of your destiny. The captain of your world. The life in which you are given the wheel to steer. Any direction.Without limitation or restriction.

The outcome you get? is the realization that you are only human and it is difficult and sometimes even heart breaking because you can't steer life without changing it. And that sometimes conscious effort is needed to make changes for the best, for the future, for yourself and for the best of others, the people you care about the most. Knowing, with every single. inevitable change. the  package of consequences which comes along is going to be filled with questions of 'what ifs' and the constant nagging at the back of your mind .Of things you should have done and things that you shouldn't have done. Just to make the changes that occurred  bearable and also maybe to make sense of the dissonance that is heavily weighing on your psyche.

But I figured that's just the human condition. Perhaps change is needed for us to know what matters to us the most. Maybe it takes change to know who are the people that matter to you the most and maybe just maybe, If we are lucky enough we would be given a second chance to go back and relive those memories in which we were the most happiest. The most content. A chance to live again. To breath again and to experience the reckless abandon as a child would in the meadows. The things  that we felt when we were kids before the recognition that we would not stay kids forever. Before we got to know that life is not always about pink cotton candies, funfair , carousel rides, rainbows and hop scotchs.

Passion

I have been living the campus life for the past one and the half years. Today i came back to that life after a blissful month of holidays. Then it all begins, all over again like a carousel.  For the next 13 weeks this would be life.

I came back to Singapore and attended to the work I needed to get done. Whilst in the midst of doing all the work and discussing issues regarding our  lives in hall I was reminded again why i do the work I do in hall.

The people I work with are so passionate about the work they do and it actually gives me hope. Hope that good people STILL do exist and that there are people,though not many who STILL cares about others and are willing to do everything they can to ensure that the community that they are involved in, gets the best out of their tenure and efforts.

Of course this would all be a naive assumption, but sometimes all we have to do is choose to believe in the goodness of people. Faith , that there are unselfish deeds and work and actions that people are capable of achieving and executing. I think we all need that little dosage of faith cause faith brings about hope. Besides I think that with all the negativity in the world, faith and hope will do our souls good because sometimes all you need is a little hope which enables us to keep trying and keep believing in the things that we are passionate about and perhaps most importantly to continue doing  and pursuing our passions. Especially when the fruits of our labor is not growing nor showing any signs of growth.

A day to go

It's amazing and strange at the same time , the feeling you get when the holidays are about to end and that you have to go back to routine and lead the life that you ought to live. Not because you actually enjoy it but because it's the safer choice.

Speaking about safer choices, a degree doesn't guarantee you anything anyway. You just end up being like everyone else. Qualified to get a job with a different range of pay that is... and  that is SUPPOSE to make all the difference and add meaning to the tertiary education that everyone is fussing about. I just wonder if it really will matter at the end of the day.

the beginning

I figured that its a new year and i should do something that i would never ever in a million years  thought of doing. So viola,  I decided that I am going to start blogging. For sometime now, people have been asking me to blog and I never understood the reason why people spend time blogging about their lives.

I have always been critical about the motives of people writing about their personal life for the world to view and comment and you know inevitably make conclusions about you and your life and your realities. Having said that I think its the human condition to have our voices heard, to matter to someone out there who took the time to read the words we want to say but somehow was unable to do so  for various reasons and perhaps the feeling of peace we get when we express our thoughts and speak about the life we lead.

So people have a myriad of reasons to blog .I think if i were totally honest with myself, the reason i decided to blog is because aside from the obvious fact that i love writing, it is because writing is a huge part of me and I need to write to keep my sanity from the world and people i deal with everyday.   I have been writing since i was 8 and I still do write. Not electronically though, I have a journal i write in and I must say it's a pleasure to go back to it (the journal) every once in a while to relive old memories, lessons learned in the past and also to rediscover the person who wrote all those previous journal entries and see if  she is the same person as she was in the past.

So here is to a new beginning,of writing on the net though i still intend to keep writing in my manual, old school journal where i use a pen and a book .. I like flipping papyrus and looking at my handwriting. I am a narcissist that way =) only cause i write for myself and no one else.